Towards the end of last year my health took a turn for the worse and I was diagnosed with long term post-natal depression. Fueled by the joy that was 2020, homeschooling, a crazy toddler and a business to run, I had to step away from studying while I focused on getting better.
With support, I’m now returning to my studies and am now attempting to pick up where I left off. I need to revisit which exercises I started, which I finished but hadn’t managed to write up, and what I have yet to get started on.
It feels like I have such a way to go having taken a year to get here. But I’ve set myself a goal of the end of the month just two weeks away to finish Assignment 2, and then 6 weeks per assignment after that to finish Expressing Your Vision. Learner Support have confirmed that even with my extension have to complete EYV by the 16th July 2021.
During my time away from studying I’ve re-evaluated my future plans, and have made the decision that I would like to change my course to Graphic Design. My plan post BA was to hopefully study MA Communication Design at Norwich University of Arts, and my own business is now moving more in a design based direction due to covid, so a change of course f eels very apt.
2020 provided the opportunity for a lot of soul searching and re-evaluating what is important to me and my goals for the future. I closed my Hypnobirthing business of 8 years, and made the decision to only take on minimal photography work linked to my developing Web Design business. I’ve always loved Graphic Design, and actually spend a lot of my leisure time designing, and so I’m looking forward to exploring this further.
I have found that the hardest part of the course so far for me is actually picking up my camera and making time to shoot. Not helped by the ongoing pandemic I feel somewhat restricted within my house/local suburban area. I’ve somewhat fallen out of love with photography but can’t put my finger on why. Recently I’ve heard a lot of people talk about how restrictions often fuel creativity, and so I’m hoping the time and physical restraints will actually help me as I move forward.
Having really struggled with motivation to date, knowing that I have an absolute deadline for EYV, and that I will be changing course at the end is really giving me a push in the right direction. I’ve always worked well under pressure and really recognise my unwavering talent for putting things off until the last possible minute (AKA procrastination) – I just hope my history of pulling it off against all odds doesn’t fail me now.
I’m hoping having a strict deadline will now force me to be more organised and to worry less and action more.